When I started blogging, five years ago, things were so different. There was no pressure of professional pictures. Blogging was rough and simple.
Then time passed, blogging changed, and in the process, I became a mother.
I was too worried about trying to keep my life the same as how it was before my baby arrived. I wanted to continue growing my business, working in sponsored campaigns and collaborating with brands while dealing with all the challenges of a new mother.
One big pressure, I remember, was trying to show pretty images of my new life constantly. It was hard, because, as a lot of you already know, motherhood is not perfect. It’s actually really messy. But I was obsessed with capturing all the“pretty” memories. I often made my husband and baby sit down and posed for the camera. They didn’t love it, and I couldn’t but feel guilty about it.
Trying to capture “beautiful” moments feels exhausting and silly sometimes. My baby is growing, he wants to make messes, be rude, push my buttons in front of people. And sometimes I’m there, trying to make him pose for pictures while all he wants to do is run or jump.
Last weekend we celebrated Jaxon’s second birthday. I got home and realized that I forgot to take pictures of his party. I came home feeling guilty and totally sad about not having digital memories of that day. So I took out a piece of leftover cake when we got home and I decided to recreate the moment just to take some pictures of his balloons and birthday gifts.
The thing is that is so hard to be a mami blogger and not try to take tons of pictures of your kid, family, and life all the time!
Even when is hard to stop, I now realized that as much as I love looking at images of my kid smiling and playing on my phone or computer, it will never be the same as looking at his face in front of me, while the moment is still happening.
As a good therapy, I started to take quick and non-planned pictures and I started to appreciate the beauty of pixelated faces, blurry smiles, and dark videos. There is authenticity in them, and a sense of reality and honesty, just like blogging five years ago.
Are you a mami blogger too? How long have you been blogging? Do your kid loves helping you with pictures or he hates them?